After Earl and I married and moved to our first church as pastor and family, my non-Christian attitude didn’t change. I cursed and complained about the Christian music he played in the car. I continued habits that reflected poorly on his ministry. I refused to attend any service other than Sunday morning worship.
I watched Christians and couldn’t believe what they
believed. Some showed me aspects of faith that downright scared me. After suffering
years of abuse by men and my sinful lifestyle, I had an impenetrable wall of
self-protection. When I felt weak I withdrew believing no one could love the
real me, especially God.
Four years and four months passed in tension and turmoil for
my family. Then I went on a Walk to Emmaus where the Holy Spirit ministered to
my brokenness. I learned I wasn’t alone as new friends shared their stories of
sin and redemption. I learned I didn’t have to bear my burden alone. Jesus died
on my behalf long before my sins occurred.
When I accepted God’s forgiveness for my sin, He changed my
life in an instant. Bible study became my favorite pastime. Reading the stories
about my Savior and my brothers and sisters in Christ 2,000 years before,
helped me understand God’s love, mercy, grace and forgiveness.
We are blessed beyond measure through the redemptive blood
of Jesus Christ.
I am pressed but not crushed, persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed I am blessed beyond the curse for His promise will endure
His joy's gonna be my strength
Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning,*
Therefore, my brothers and sisters, I want you to know that
through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you." (Acts 13:38 NIV).
“Blessed are those whose transgressions are forgiven, whose
sins are covered. Blessed is the one whose sin the Lord will never count
against them.” (Rom 4:7, 8 NIV).
In Christian Love,
Berta
*Lyrics: Trading My Sorrows by Delirious
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