I received a new power
wheelchair recently. I get a new one every five years and this is my fifth. It
made me think about the struggles I’ve had over the years. My first one, back
in 1991, felt like an ugly monster truck. Huge, black, and belt driven, it had
pneumatic tires that burst at the worst times. I spent many hours in it asleep
or pretending to sleep. I didn’t like my self-image and I withdrew.
The second chair was a
different model and built by a small vendor just getting started. It had
structural problems from the beginning and caused me physical pain and
emotional stress. I took my anger out on my family.
My third chair was to be the
same model and I anticipated five more years of misery. I pointed out problem areas
to the new provider. He listened and soon I had my chair. He walked me through
the computer technology setting speed levels from indoor polite to outdoor
racing. It was much better and I began to take comfort in my independence. I
opened up and began reaching out in our Church and our community.
Five years later, I called him
again, “My chair is worn out. Will you build me another just like it?” He
delivered a chair that was a clone. It was as if time had stood still, but new
friends helped me develop a positive attitude and strong ministry.
This fifth chair took eight
month’s from prescription to delivery, and I admit I was getting anxious. The
same provider assured me it would be worth the wait. It was. It’s compact.
Sleek with clean, fresh, black paint, and more power and technology, it is an
extension of my body.
My life, my attitude, and my
faith developed slowly but steadily as I experienced each change in my physical
surroundings. From depression and anger, to acceptance and genuine surprise at
the beauty I see in my wheelchair and myself.
Ephesians 4:13...until we all
reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become
mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
In Christ Alone,
Berta
Berta:
ReplyDeleteI learned a couple of things by reading this entry. There are two people at church who have power chairs. I didn't realize it takes so long to get one built. Also, I know these people have gotten new ones but I didn't know it happened every five years.